On Second Thought

At first glance that picture probably makes no sense at all. Bare with me and it will make plenty of sense in no time. You see, I am one of those people who can really over think just about any situation. I will go over things in my mind time and time again constantly going back and forth on one decision or another. Even decisions I have made in the past I will usually question in the aftermath. One that comes to mind often these days was the summer before my final semester in college. Due to a car accident the previous fall I was 12 credits from graduation. I was offered a job at a sleep away camp in New York and I took the job. Still, literally right up until I got into my car and began my driving up to NY I was having doubts. Shouldn’t I complete my degree over the summer instead of waiting until fall? That is the responsible thing to do after all and I like to do the responsible thing when possible. Anyway, I made it to camp, had an amazing summer and then a fairly stressful but enjoyable final fall.

With that little moment of nostalgia out of the way I will further explain that odd little picture at the top. Recently, I had made a decision to move out of Virginia, something that I have been attempting basically since I got here anyway. A few months back that decision was to move to NY and for quite a good amount of time I was very happy with that decision. Then one day out of the blue I began having these longings for a move to Florida. At the same time as my indecisiveness grew work became extremely hectic and my next project became unsure, making my move more complicated than before. So, during a rather boring and long meeting I began doodling that little list to compare my 3 current options and the ranking them as I saw them. As you can see I am quite an artist, but even with the help of my lovely little drawings and ranking system I am no closer to making a real decision with only a month to go. So, do I follow the example of my summer camp decision and stick with my first choice or do I give value to my little spreadsheet and make the most responsible choice?